Fishing

I have really been stressing about Master’s reaction to my last couple posts.  I wavered about whether or not I should post about other men on “our” blog, but I felt strongly that those events were enhanced, or even inspired, by the experiences I had with Jason.  We talked once about polyamory, he was intrigued by the idea, so my hope is he understands that I am no less his when I do these things.  In fact, I was thinking about him the whole time, LOL!

I, myself, though I have yet to keep my jealous feelings completely in check, have a very strong voyeuristic streak that helps me out in that department.  Doug listed off all the women he’s been fooling around with lately and I can’t stop thinking about what he does with them.  I started fantasizing about him telling me exactly what he does with them, how their bodies are shaped, what their faces look like when they squirt, whether or not they like to be gagged.

I’m sure Master has other women too and sometimes I think the same thing as well.  What sweet torture it would be for him to say, “Jennifer really liked this when I did it to her.”  But my jealousy with him is all about time, though I have no care for what he does day to day, I do wish he had more time for me.

If Neil ever gets a girlfriend I hope he’ll share with me all the details as well.  He worries that he might like someone else better than me but I look forward to the things he’ll learn from someone new.

Mistress is going out of town with another woman this weekend and I told her if things get wild she needed to tell me everything!  She obviously shares my voyeuristic streak because she loves to read this and hear all about my escapades.  Every now and then I wonder if I do something just so I can tell her about it later.  She and I talk about how much fun it would be to be in a situation where we can watch other people fooling around…though I’m beginning to wonder if those situations actually exist.  The first time she gave me a very sound spanking we had an audience, she said it helped her perform better.  I certainly enjoyed knowing someone else was getting off on my punishment.